Monday, April 26, 2010

Sea sick or just plain homesick...

'I am told quite often that i have moved to the most beautiful part of Canada. Many friends and family have said how lucky i am to be given this great opportunity. I do agree it is beautiful here. The valley has alot to offer not only my husband and i but our son. They offer alot of interesting programs that back home were unheard of. But every now and then i catch myself missing "home". The familiar roads and neighbourhoods and of course my friends and family. My homesickness comes in waves and i never know when the next one will hit. We take drives around the valley and i discover more things to love and appreciate. My homesickness subsides. Being away from everything helps to put your life into perspective. It's a real test of strength to be far from good friends and family. I believe it takes courage and alot of faith as well. You hope it all works out and your choices were wise ones.

We have been here for almost four months living in a rental that I have not enjoyed. This coming Friday we will be moving to a better place in the country. A place that feels more like home and does remind me of back home.

Alot of hopes and dreams had been trampled so when this home came along it was an answer to our prayers. I think things will start to turn around for me and my family. Faith and hope can go along way...
So maybe it's just alittle seasickness after all!

The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, and
delivers them out of all their troubles.
Psalm 34:17

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My little boy is growing up...

My husband and i have been blessed with one very special child. Our son's name is Samuel but we call him Sam or Sammy. He is ten years old and is the light of our life. Sam has been the most amazing child from day one. As a baby he was easy, happy and very lovable. At toddler stage he was curious and very independent. One of the things i instilled in Sam was to have a sense of independence. And self confidence was not far behind. A very self assured child that wherever we took him he always had an audience. His endless grown up chatter used to shock and impress adults all the time. Never shy always polite people immediately felt drawn to my son. Every year it is the same remark from every new teacher...he is such a intelligent...very polite...friendly and he brings so much sparkle to the classroom. I take pride that i have chosen to stay home and raise my son and have put all my time and energy into him. Endlessly searching for the best activities to put him in that he will enjoy and flourish in has been one of my tasks. My boy is becoming well rounded and confident. That being said sometimes all of this can come back to haunt you...when you raise your child to be independent and ready to go off on his own as the mother you ask yourself am i ready for this? Well Sam as of 5am this morning has gone on his very own class trip. The trip is three days ...two nights. Not once was he nervous, apprehensive or scared. He was ready and very excited. Sam is new to this school and this province we are now living in. I can't imagine taking all this on at his age. I would have been shaking behind my mom's apron! Sam playing his piano for Kachina.

As the tears roll down my face tonight (when my husband is not looking) and the heart pains come and go...i will be thinking about my little man who is happy, laughin, very clever and being very brave...and give myself a little pat on the back for doing such a wonderful job so far...and just maybe i could learn something from my little boy "Sam".....

Hope he comes home soon Kachina has been waiting in his room all day!

Finding Cowichan Bay

Where your treasure is,
there will your heart be also."
Luke 12:34

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I'm wading in the sea and reflecting...

But the path of the just is like the shining sun, that shines ever brighter unto the perfect day.

Proverbs 4:18

I always like to reflect on where i've been and where i'm going in life. Somedays my life feels like a cartoon that replays the same story over and over. Pointing your life in a direction that you want to take is not always easy. There are always road blocks on the way. Sometimes i try to look at them as not road blocks but rest stations. .. to ponder and really feel if i am headed in the right direction. Looking around i always see others achieving and arriving at their chosen destination. When you look deeper into their story you will also find support, encouragement and alot of faith. What i am saying it not always easier to become what you want or get what you want when everyone around you is on your side and not trying to change your plans to what theirs are?

My family and i are on this life changing journey with only each for support while my faith grows stronger everyday. We have been renting a home now for about four months. We came to this home by sheer luck especially since this area has very few if any rental homes. It has sustained us for the transition time even though it is cramped, small , old and very dated. I love old character homes and the country. The island has not many character homes being such a young place. I thought i would never experience living in an older charming home again. It is really amazing the way life can somehow find a way to bring to you what you want. Through a new friend in town i was introduced to the most enchanting home. The owners live out of town and were in need of care takers for their beautiful home. My husband and i fit the bill perfectly. It's charming, old and in the country on lots of land. With my husband undertaking a new business this is the perfect place where quiet , solitude is most needed. It things like this that make me think yes you are still on my side... yes we will make out okay

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Friday, April 2, 2010

Climbing Mountains

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters, compared to
what lies within us. Ralph Waldo Emerson Mountains are majestic and beautiful they invite you up with their mysterious trails. The island is surrounded by mountains ...a hikers paradise. I have been a walker for years so I felt up to a great hike. Hiking a mountain is a journey in itself. Your eager for the change of scenery feel ready to endure the test of your own strength. But like life you never know how hard the trail will be or where it will take you or if you'll make it to the top.
Hiking showed me I was not in the shape I thought I was even after years of daily walks. My endurance wasn't where I thought it was.

My dog Pilot took to the trails with ease and grace...totally in tune with her own instincts. Watching her I felt happy and peaceful. Pets make us feel better because they are pure positive energy. They don't hold us responsible for their own happiness. They never question why we are choosing this trail and not the one they think is best or would make them happy. They just wag their tails appreciating the love we have for them.

We put in a good hour of hiking and decided to visit Maple Bay beach. There will be so many days ahead to discover all the different trails. Just like life itself everyday is a moment of discovery.

A walk on Maple Bay beach was the perfect way to contemplate the next trail in our life to take...

Wishing all of you a blessed Easter...Thanks for visiting
Pamela xo